really random posts about food, eating well and healthy, my life, chocolates and dramas!


649: I.

I love the way you try your best to make me happy.

I love the way you try to spend as much time with me before my night shift tonight.

I love the way you plant a random kiss on my cheeks when I get you the “sad” look :)

I appreciate you.

648: 感动

Achievement unlocked – conquered my fear, presented in front of a crowd of close to 100, sharing something very close to my heart. 

Falling in love all over again with my silly boy :) Silly boy came by to pick me up today and I had thought he was on his way home… I was actually about to make my way home. I felt so apologetic cause’ he came all the way down to pick me up! My number one supporter, I’m truly very blessed :) 

I love the way you look into my eyes, the way you feed me (as if I was a little child), the way you hold my hands, the way you volunteer to carry my heavy loads, the way you put your warm arms around me, the way you will imitate my “silly” look, the way you will share about your work, the way you tease me, the way you kiss me on my lips whenever we part, i love you.

Thank you for making me so complete, so blessed and so happy (:

647: The cycle – painful waiting

Honestly, this is the first time in the good 27 years of my life that I’m feeling so worried-sick-mad about someone. I’m probably just over-reacting or just being stupidly foolish. But it is so painful that it is to the extent of making me feel so unsettled the entire day. I feel crippled because I CANNOT concentrate at all (even when doing my day-to-day tasks without wondering if he’s alright).

I’m worried because I haven’t heard from him in a while (which is so unlike him) and I really hope he’s safe.

And then I get upset and mad because my mind starts wondering if he is trying to avoid my messages.

And then I rationalize that perhaps the connection there ain’t too good. And then I start getting worried all over again.

And then I try to keep my spirits up by reminding myself to “trust and have faith”, keeping my mind occupied by talking to family.

But I start getting worried all over again. And yet I don’t wish to appear too irritating and I just wanted him to enjoy his alone-time out with his friends.

But I’m very worried and it’s making me so emotionally unstable and unsettled.

Alright, so I draft a curt message relaying how worried-mad-and-upset I am. To the point that if we do meet face-to-face, I will really want to scold him for making me so so so worried because my heart ain’t strong.

Message Sent.

Praying hard everything will be alright.


Painfully waiting.

646: Have you ever felt abandoned?

Do you know how worried I was?

I think, with some basic courtesy, you should just update me if you are safe. Can you imagine the emotional turmoil you’re putting my heart through the past few days? It was worry, then relief (to hear a bit from you) and then sadness, finally ending off with anger. Now I’m angry and upset with you. But I know, deep down inside, I’m most worried. I don’t really know why I’m feeling this way, so strongly. I’ve not exactly felt this strongly about something before.

For now, I’m praying that everything will be alright. Have faith, Rina (:

Looping “Failure in Disguise” to keep my sanity in place..

Have you ever felt like you were the only one on the road?
Have you ever wondered, “Where has everybody gone?”
Have you ever felt abandoned?
Have you ever felt alone?

Have you ever felt like just crying out for help?
And then did you wonder “Will they even understand?”
Have you ever felt a pain you could not bear?
But the world, it goes around just fine anyway.

Well I, I hear your cry,
And I, I feel your pain;
I know you try so hard
To make things right,
To overcome
This endless fight–
Just don’t give up.

Have you ever felt like you just stepped over the line?
And then, did you just pretend that everything was fine?
Have you ever felt nobody knows who you are?
Have you ever felt like a failure in disguise?

Well I, I hear your cry,
And I, I feel your pain;
I know you try so hard
To make things right,
To overcome
This endless fight–
Just don’t give up;
Just don’t give up;
Just don’t give up;
I won’t give up.

645: Picnic time!:)   


644: Northern Lights

Lately, I’ve been dreaming of heading north, towards Norway, Finland or Iceland to catch the Aurora Borealis. I will DIE HAPPY if I can catch this sight.

BUCKET LIST (and I’m going to make it happen).


643: >.<


642: 简单

I need no fancy elements, no fancy dates or meals, no fancy cars, no fancy proposals nor rings.

I do not envy those who choose to show the world what they have. I do not need that amount of likes on social media. To me, the heart, the effort, that simple promise is all that matters to me and I cherish.

August 19th :) Our next little milestone. Oh how am I doing to get through the next 7-8 days without you when I’m missing you badly already :’) 


641: Back to Reality

It’s back to reality, to work after the long SG50 long weekend. Sighs. I have been so so jaded the past many months. It feels like I really don’t know what I’m doing sometimes, if what I’m doing is right.

Missing a particular someone but I’ve got to be strong.  


640: 930pm

I’ve heard of stories of military spouses/wives/girlfriends or significant others and I know I’m not the only one waiting. Often, their loved ones may be involved someplace, somewhere for some period of time. Many of these ‘affected’ families and spouses/wives/girlfriends will be awaiting the return of their loved ones after a trip or after ‘work is done’, sometimes even for months or weeks.

When I heard from a friend that she only gets to see her husband (who is currently undergoing basic military training) only during the weekend and that she misses him badly, I really understand. I really do. During the last 18 months +, I’ve (kind of) gotten used to it. There were times when I wouldn’t be able to see him for weeks – only through Whatsapp and the occasional phone calls (but reception can sometimes be so poor wherever he is). It’s like a transient/temporary LDR. And it is really not easy because there are times when I need him or miss him so much but am unable to see him (just like the other time when I suffered the minor head injury/mild concussion and he couldn’t be here by my side because of work). But I understand the nature of his work and I know that it is very important to him and all.

So it is true. It’s all about waiting. But I will be strong, I will think I’m quite an independent woman… so I will be waiting for his return someday, sometime, soon. I will be thankful so long as he is safe and he eats his meals and gets his rest time.

So whenever we get to meet, even for a short meal or so, we really cherish every little second or minute. Cooked Yee Mian (with a homemade dried mushrooms/scallops broth, no MSG!) today for our dinner (or what he said as “atas” Yee Mee and I threatened him for $50 for this bowl HAHA!) before some time in front of the TV watching “Daddy Day Care” and “Eight Below” (ohh I love the huskies!)

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Then I sent off the silly love (and now the fiance) home, listening to his stories about work (about how his new batch of boys will be in tomorrow). And how they will get to call their mothers/girlfriends at 930pm on their 1st day tomorrow. What made me really really happy was that my silly boy said he will call me at 930pm tomorrow! He said that while his little boys get to call their girlfriends, he will call his.. Awww, my heart melted! See how simple it is to make me happy! :) Well, it will be another 10 days before we get to see each other again (for the Signing of the Lease agreement of our BTO apartment)! I’m going to miss him badly. Tuesday (post-SG50 long weekend) blues but I will stay strong! :D Because I know that I’m loved.


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