FRIEND, WHY DO I MISS YOU SO MUCH?
I need no fancy elements, no fancy dates or meals, no fancy cars, no fancy proposals nor rings.
I do not envy those who choose to show the world what they have. I do not need that amount of likes on social media. To me, the heart, the effort, that simple promise is all that matters to me and I cherish.
August 19th :) Our next little milestone. Oh how am I doing to get through the next 7-8 days without you when I’m missing you badly already :’)
I’ve heard of stories of military spouses/wives/girlfriends or significant others and I know I’m not the only one waiting. Often, their loved ones may be involved someplace, somewhere for some period of time. Many of these ‘affected’ families and spouses/wives/girlfriends will be awaiting the return of their loved ones after a trip or after ‘work is done’, sometimes even for months or weeks.
When I heard from a friend that she only gets to see her husband (who is currently undergoing basic military training) only during the weekend and that she misses him badly, I really understand. I really do. During the last 18 months +, I’ve (kind of) gotten used to it. There were times when I wouldn’t be able to see him for weeks – only through Whatsapp and the occasional phone calls (but reception can sometimes be so poor wherever he is). It’s like a transient/temporary LDR. And it is really not easy because there are times when I need him or miss him so much but am unable to see him (just like the other time when I suffered the minor head injury/mild concussion and he couldn’t be here by my side because of work). But I understand the nature of his work and I know that it is very important to him and all.
So it is true. It’s all about waiting. But I will be strong, I will think I’m quite an independent woman… so I will be waiting for his return someday, sometime, soon. I will be thankful so long as he is safe and he eats his meals and gets his rest time.
So whenever we get to meet, even for a short meal or so, we really cherish every little second or minute. Cooked Yee Mian (with a homemade dried mushrooms/scallops broth, no MSG!) today for our dinner (or what he said as “atas” Yee Mee and I threatened him for $50 for this bowl HAHA!) before some time in front of the TV watching “Daddy Day Care” and “Eight Below” (ohh I love the huskies!)
Then I sent off the silly love (and now the fiance) home, listening to his stories about work (about how his new batch of boys will be in tomorrow). And how they will get to call their mothers/girlfriends at 930pm on their 1st day tomorrow. What made me really really happy was that my silly boy said he will call me at 930pm tomorrow! He said that while his little boys get to call their girlfriends, he will call his.. Awww, my heart melted! See how simple it is to make me happy! :) Well, it will be another 10 days before we get to see each other again (for the Signing of the Lease agreement of our BTO apartment)! I’m going to miss him badly. Tuesday (post-SG50 long weekend) blues but I will stay strong! :D Because I know that I’m loved.
I’m terribly apologetic for neglecting this little space of mine for a good year. GOSH THE year is coming to an end, in 38 days! Well, well, it’s been a terrific year really. Hmmm, much much less of the fats and butter and baking and MORE of the #EatClean lifestyle with my pseudovegetarian/pescetarian meals and green smoothies! And I’ve been running more (sadly not been going to my gym since February) and going for my LAST race (my 19th this year) in two weeks’ time! OMG SCMS Full Marathon. Never never dreamt that I’ll be running this, honestly.
I AM WORK-IN-PROGRESS.
Operation fat-and-flabs to abs-and-fab! Hahaha :)
A summary of my runs in 2014 thus far :)
ONE. 2XU Compression Run 21.1KM – 2 March 2014. 2h 3min. My very first half marathon with someone special. :)
TWO. X-Bionic Venus Run 5KM – 8 March 2014. 25min 31sec, my 5KM PB.
THREE. Run 350 10KM – 27 April 2014. 52 min 12 sec.
FOUR. Green Corridor 10.5KM – 18 May 2014. 1h 01sec.
FIVE. Sundown Marathon 2014 21.1KM – 31 May 2014. 2h 5min.
SIX. Pocari Sweat Run 2014 10KM – 8 June 2014. 54min 21sec.
SEVEN. Jurong Lake Run 2014 10KM – 21 June 2014. 53min 40sec.
EIGHT. Mizuno Passion Wave Run 15KM – 20 July 2014. 1h 30min.
NINE. Race Against Cancer 2014 15KM – 3 Aug 2014. 1h 26min.
TEN. Shape Run 2014 10KM – 17 Aug 2014. 52min 33sec.
ELEVEN. Army Half Marathon 2014 21.1KM – 31 Aug 2014. 2h 1min.
TWELVE. Yellow Ribbon Run 2014 10KM – 14 Sep 2014. 58min.
THIRTEEN. Straits Times Run 2014 21.1KM – 28 Sep 2014. 1h 56min. MY HALF MARATHON SUB-2 PERSONAL BEST! :) <3
FOURTEEN. Newton Challenge 2014 18KM – 26 Oct 2014. 1h 40min.
FIFTEEN. PUMA Night Run 2014 10KM – 1 Nov 2014. 52min 44sec.
SIXTEEN. SIA Charity Run 2014 10KM – 2 Nov 2014. 53min 55sec. Back-to-back craziness that weekend but rewarded with happiness, great satisfaction that we did some good and a pretty lanyard:)
SEVENTEEN. Great Eastern Women’s Run 2014 21.1KM – 9 Nov 2014. 2h 2min. Not in my best form that day and was the first time ever that I felt so dizzy (that I felt like blacking out) post-run. Hypoglycemia. :(
EIGHTEEN. Swissotel Vertical Marathon 2014 – 23 Nov 2014. J73 storeys, 1336 steps and 226m. 14min 35sec. My first ever challenge against Gravity and thankful that the boy is around to watch over me, never dreamt that I’ll make it. Honestly. After recovering from a bout of viral illness. But it was a breeze, surprisingly. And the view was breathtaking!
AND NOW TWO WEEKS more to the last race of 2014 for me, SCMS 42.195KM. Can’t help getting all worried and jittery:( but oh wells, going by my motto: KEEP CALM AND RUN ON.
1 year and 2 months’ hiatus. Hmm I’m back.
Well, probably just a short one. I’m back to running, running more, running further. My most recent 21.1km run at 2 hour 3 minutes (I’m gonna better that in May). Running keeps me happy, keeps me sane. It’s awesome that for the last 2-3 weeks, I’ve been trying to hit a target mileage of 42-45km. Yays(: From this week onwards, in fact, the plan will be:
Wednesday: Body Combat at Gym
Saturday (if no work): 10km trail (at MR)
Anyway, life is joyous. Run, bake, work, love, laugh and stay happy! (:
I broke down today and cried for a whole hour. All I ask is for someone to just listen. Why can’t you just listen to me? You don’t have to understand me, you’ve just got to listen. If someone understands, that’ll probably the best gift now. But what can you do when the person you want to appeal to just doesn’t wish to listen?
Crying helps release all the tensions and made me reflect on my life the past many many many months. I’m one who swallows everything in and I try to be strong for the people around me. But sometimes we falter, sometimes I don’t feel strong anymore. Just like how I’m feeling now. I don’t think anyone’s going to listen right now.
Back to my red puffy eyes while I try to stand up strong again. :(
There’s so much more to life than all of the hours
Moments that just slid beneath our feet
In the times that we put it all on the table
And help feels too far beyond our reach
There’s so much more to talk about than the weather
But right now it just feels easier
If we can make it through this storm
And become who we were before
Promise me we’ll never look back
The worst is far behind us now
We’ll make it out of here somehow
Meet me in the aftermath
Oh, meet me in the aftermath
I’ve been neglecting this private space of mine. I just don’t feel inspired to blog at all. I’ve been religiously cooking and baking and capturing shots but I don’t have the time and energy to blog them down in words.
Anyway, how have life been treating y’all? I’m doing okay, I guess. Life comes with its own problems as well. At least, I know that when things are not right, I don’t want to do silly things so I end them there and then. I guess it’s a form of my defense mechanism. I’m not building walls around me, I’m just waiting for the right opportunity to open up to people who matter.
Watched “Life of Pi” quite recently and it was a magnificent film, in my humble opinion. I gave up reading the book back in school years back and I’ve decided to pick the book back up again. Love this bitter-sweet quote: I suppose in the end, the whole of life becomes an act of letting go, but what always hurts the most is not taking a moment to say goodbye.”
All of life is an act of letting go. I’ve learnt it the hard way.
Enough of silly musings. I baked and cooked quite a lot these days. I thought I’ll just share some. Baked some cinnamon pecan sticky buns recently. Got captivated by the Boston’s Flour Bakery ones! But that’s like in the US of A. The closest will be the sticky buns from Simply Bread at Cluny Court.
Well, what’s best than to bake them. The recipe is an astonishing beauty. The brioche dough was awesomely soft and fluffy and buttery even after a day of baking. The pecan cinnamon mix was a sure win. Love it (:
I’m off today, from work, just needed a break. I’m so going to run later! Woots~